Saturday, January 29, 2005

Haizz...
It's been so lonely 4 me,nobody knew.i kept it inside my heart ol dis while and naw im here blogging jus to throw ol dis feelings away.i may appear happy on the outside bt inside,my heart is breaking slowly apart.Everyone else that i knew is so occupied in their own lives.They are so happy.They have their own friends,own bz life.Why cant i live like them,how i envy them.
M i unapproachable or ugly dat nobody seems to know i exist?M i dat bad?Maybe this is ol fate.
Naw i can onli turn to my dearest mum.She was the one who has always been there 4 me fr im stil small til naw.She may be strict or stern on me,bt i knew deep inside she cares abt me.Sayang mama.
Bt still,deep inside,my heart is crying...



Fifie

FiFiEdAuS was able to feel at 11:16 AM

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Friday, January 28, 2005

Haiz...it's been so dull,unfair,lonely,boring...



Fifie

FiFiEdAuS was able to feel at 3:27 PM

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ONE LAST by Taufik

I never could imagine, life without you
From the moment you walked into my world
Never knew how long a loving flame could burn
But losing you has forced me to learn
That we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for a while and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
It's better if we just let it go

Every time i try to take a stand at all
I see your face again and i fall
In the middle of the night there's the scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume i suppose
But we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus

Baby if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and i
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to bear
So let's have

Chorus

We both know
It's better if we just let it go



Fifie

FiFiEdAuS was able to feel at 2:41 PM

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Tuesday, January 11, 2005

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might thinkI don't look
But deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak
It's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You don't know
What you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weakIt's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try, anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try, anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
-Ryan Cabrera's True



Fifie

FiFiEdAuS was able to feel at 10:41 PM

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Friday, January 07, 2005

After almost 2 months i "boycott" dis blog,i decided to write again(even tho i fil lethargic 2 write)..dis is 2 keep my peeps updated abt me.n oso tanx 2 ina 4 constantly taking her bz schedule to help me wif publishing dis new blogskin.
Dis 2 months lotsa tings hav happened.From hari raya,christmas,new yr's eve,exams,work,exams results,s'pore idol,friends,family,girlfren,tsunami,phantom of the opera and other tings i jus cant remember..
So little tym yet alotof tings hav happened.there's alotof tings 2 write bt i juss kudnt bring mysef to..here's a brief of wat has hapened 2 me..
First off,im quite glad 4 my exams results,i got an 3.13 for my gpa,2 Bs,1 A,1 C.(dese grades r jus lyk my PSLE!)hhaha..bt 2 add 2 my disbelief,its exactly d same as ismadi's.hahaa congrats to us..
second off,WORK!!haiz..its bin almost 2 months since i last started in raffles bar n billiard room.werking there is gd bcos of its pay,free food during break and i can book my free days there(meaning i can work when im free n hack care when im bz.).negative tings:Manager,collection of pay,hardwerk and short haircut..i made quite a considerable circle of frens there,dey're ol lively n veri sociable n approachable..Unlike in Le meridian,where most of them are so like shit!hahaa.
third off,Taufik Batisah won the very first Singapore Idol!!im veri happy for him.i bought his pre-album sale n cant wait for the arrival of his album on 12th Jan.ive downloaded ol of his songs from the piano show to the final showdown.Die-hard fan?Of course.
Fourth off,the tsunami which killed almost 150,000 pple ard South Asia..it reli saddened me to tis day n i wish i kud help in any way..D power of Allah..
Lastly,i jus watched Phantom of the opera wif ina..ina kept asking me if ever i get bored thruout d show.n i kept answered no 2 her.Bcos she noes Musical is jus not my cup of tea..hahaa..bt it was quite gd,a gd sad story.bt i kept making fun of the songs after i finished watching it.N ina was so irritated by me,hehehe.aniway it was fun tho..u peeps shud watch it.
wel,to end dis post,i shall say dat im looking 4ward to meeting ol my frens dis sundae morning n nxt wk..its a long tym since we ol last met.N HELP ME!im HTML illiterate! anione of u,perhaps can help me wif dis blog?hehee..
okiez,Sori 4 my bad vocabulary n grammar in dis post..tataa peepz..



Fifie

FiFiEdAuS was able to feel at 3:18 PM

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Sunday, October 31, 2004

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life



Fifie

FiFiEdAuS was able to feel at 3:44 PM

Better Man

Friday, October 29, 2004

What a week it has been..
1st,i juz got 2 noe dat my family aint gona celebrate dis year's hari raya,which means no visiting of nenek soyah n nyayi.Which oso means staying at hm during dat whole dae.The reason:my family's goin bankrupt.Im reli so sad,wish i kud do sumtin abt it..
2nd,its been a while since i last being nice 2 my gerfren.We bof been fighting n arguing dese few daes,coz i kudnt undrstd her enaf.Deres jus too much differences between us.She blamed me 4 being too petty n childish but i reli cant help it,its jus wat i fil.I even wanted 2 leave bt she held me bak.Miss dos daes when we kud jus stay hapi n laugh 2getha.But too bad certain tings jus cant be 4gotten.Ive changed.
3rd,my family's goin bankrupt.My dad's boss cheated him of his pay,which i fil is reli pathetic n cruel.N my dad's contract wif dat johor company gona expire in late december.I jus dunoe wat's gona hapen in future.Dis week ive started 2 pay my own expenses,lyk my hp bills n concessions pass.N my mum has stop giving me allowance 4 my own use.Money has always been a problem 4 me n my family.I jus dunoe wats gona hapen when my dad's out of job.
4th n da last,ive jus got my bfd ca result,which i got a pathetic 36/50..Where's my consistency?Fr 48 to 36,a fall of 12 marks.Bt i cant be blamed,i jus got too many problems in my mind dat i kudnt concentrate well.Im so sad,i wana do my best but tis tym i kudnt.I jus hope i can go 2 poly nxt year.
Naw im so sad n confused.Shud i leave n jus 4get ol dos problems to pursue my own dreams n hapiness? But i cant.I noe i hav a responsibility as a son,a brother,a fren,a student and a boyfren.
As a guy,i jus wish god kud give me d strength n enthusiasm 2 fight n solve dos problems.



Fifie

FiFiEdAuS was able to feel at 7:51 PM

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Friday, October 08, 2004

Brand New Blog Still Fresh From the Oven
1st up,goin 2 sch was hell.Coz i gota get up early 2 a 'not-so-looking-forward day'.Was 30 mins late 4 Mr Tong's class after bus ride and all(for anibodi who doesnt know this,Mr Tong's my fav teacher in ITE.).
Then,on the bus,heard Jeassea K Thyidor's voice singing a b'dae song on Perfect 10's morning show,and so i thought,what a waste of talent.SINGAPORE!PLEASE VOTE FOR A GOOD SINGER.
During sch,it was ol that sch werk and assignments,ate BK at IMM,got damn full,what a bore.
After sch,it was tym to charge up a lil bit,for there was a floorball training in the hall.Kinda tired after ol that running but it was worth it.Coz ive burn dos unwanted fats off my beer belly ,which ive had not done for,erm,months?..
Then,it was time for home.Watched S'pore Idol-Taufik Batisah did well.Congrats bro.Do all malays proud.
Still wondering whether a palm prediction can be accurate or not,and wondering whether i can choose to believe it or don't.
P.S. You guys and gals.It's my 1st day blogging.Thank you.



Fifie

FiFiEdAuS was able to feel at 1:28 PM

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